Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Prayer Request

Today has been a bit of a rough day. It started early and it looks like it will probably end late. However, it was the in between that really sucked.


Last summer I noticed a growth on the back of my calf. I didn't really think anything about it. I thought it would just go away. It never did.

I finally made an appointment to have it looked at. That appt was today. The Dr was nice enough. The atmosphere was fine. The news, however, totally sucked.

The Dr took a look at the growth. Looked at me, and said, Why didn't you come in sooner?

Ummmm, because I've been busy raising two kids! Have you ever noticed that your needs totally go on the back burner when you have kids. My health is not as important astheirs. I take them to the Dr for every little thing. I, however, rarely go. This is one case where I should have gone much earlier.

The Dr removed the growth and is sending it off to have it tested for Melanoma cancer. He felt the lymph node in my groin and apparently it is quite enlarged. This is not good either. The Dr is 99% sure I have melanoma cancer. It started out as a little spot on my calf, and has since spread to at least the one lymph node, possibly more.

When the biopsy comes back in a week or two, and if it is cancer, he will refer me to a surgeon who will send dye coursing through my veins to determine where else the cancer has spread to. After that I will see an oncologist and will probably be started on chemotherapy.

Needless to say I am totally freaked out. This wasn't what I expected or wanted to hear. I'm not sure what I expected, but it certainly wasn't this.

I came home after the Dr appt today and held both of my babies just a little bit tighter. From now on I think I will have a different out look on this thing we call life.

Please keep us in your prayers. I will keep you updated as we find out information.

26 comments:

thetoepfertimes said...

I don't even know what to say. Of course we'll pray for you. Please let us know if there is anything you need or we can do at all!!!

Rach (Mommy Learns to Blog) said...

Oh Heather, my heart is breaking for you. It is so true that when it comes to our kids, they come first and we come last. You will be in my thoughts and prayers and I will be praying that it has not spread further than the area the doctor talked to you about. Please email me if you want to talk, I will be thinking about your. Big hugs coming your way. XOXO Rachael

Rach (Mommy Learns to Blog) said...

thinking about YOU was what I meant to say!

Jodi said...

Heather, Heather. . .my goodness you are in my prayers. I am so sorry to hear about your news. I cannot relate to the fear that you're feeling, but I know I have had about 8 moles removed in my lifetime and the last had abnormal changes. I was supposed to get checked every year and I haven't been back in almost 3 years. This prompts me to get checked out. Things in your life do seem to place your own life on the back burner. I'm so glad that you got it checked out. I'll be praying for you constantly. Please let us know what you find out.

Cars Cars Cars said...

I'll pray for you my dear

amanda said...

lots of prayers and happy thoughts coming your way friend.

whatever u need...

hugs :)

Kristen said...

Heather,
Oh my goodness, I too don't know what to say. I am hoping that your doctor is totally wrong. That you have just that, a growth.

I will be thinking and praying for you often. Know that you are loved in the blog world too!

*HUGS*

beth said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

A good friend of mine went through a similar experience (also on her calf, strangely). She discovered the growth during her pregnancy and the doctors believed strongly that she had an aggressive cancer that was spreading rapidly. Turned out is had not spread at all. Seven years later she 100% totally healthy.

The Mom said...

Many prayers coming your way, I'm sorry you are dealing with this. I hope it isn't anything as serious as they think!

Tiffany said...

We haven't met, but I found your blog through Kristen and have been reading for several weeks. So sorry you are going through the waiting and uncertainty. I am an oncology nurse and please know that I would be happy to talk with you if you need anything. I will also be praying for you!

Take each day as it comes and try (though it will be tough) to focus on what you know to be TRUE RIGHT NOW - and that is that you are a healthy mommy of two amazing children - Focus on that until you have to think otherwise. Hang in there.

Lewis Family said...

I'm going to be positive and root for the 1%!!! You just never know, God performs miracles all the time, and my friend, you will have many, many prayers coming your way.

Shannon said...

Heather, I'm so sorry this happened to you . . . what a scary day for you. I'm going to pray that they will send it away and it will turn out to be nothing - I'm sure the doctors need to prepare you for the worst, and I've decided that's not going to be the case. Focus on your family and all the happiness in your life, and that will help you get thru this difficult time.

Kerry said...

I too will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. And I will definitely be keeping my fingers crossed that the best case scenario is yours for the keeping.

Jen :) said...

Heather, I don't know what to say either. Just hang in there! We are praying that everything comes back fine from all the tests! You are a strong lady and I know that you will make it through these tough times. If you need anything, call! We will see you in a few days!

Christy said...

I am so sorry. But maybe its not cancer. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I'll keep you in my thought and prayers.

Jenn said...

I'm so sorry, I'm not really sure what to say. Just know I'll be thinking of you and please let us know as soon as you find out anything. Keeping my fingers crossed it's not to bad! Take care and try to have a good day!

Shana from EVERYTHING EADS said...

Will be thinking of you. Stay positive! I know it is easier said than done! Hang in there!!!!!!

Jen said...

Sending prayers out right now as I type this, but I will continue to pray and pray and pray for you. I know the doctor is painting a really dark picture, but he could just be trying to prepare you for the worst. You really need to try to keep your thoughts positive. That can make a huge difference. And also, be sure to seek a second, third or however many opinions you need to get the best possible care.

Thank you for sharing this with us. It is a lesson that we all need learn--take care of yourself first so that you can be there to take care of your kids.

{{{{Hugs}}}}

Mamasphere said...

You are DEFINITELY getting added to my daily prayer list. Have faith- everything will be okay. It may get harder before it gets better, but it will be okay.

Anonymous said...

Lord, be especially close to Heather during this waiting time. Whatever is true and whatever is honorable, help Heather to think on these things. May the body of Christ, the believers, pour out on Heather encouragement and kindness. May Heather experience hope and a peace that passes understanding. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen.

Heather, I will be praying for God's will in your life. He works in mysterious ways, truely. You never know what kind of healing He has in mind. But whatever His will, it is the best. He know the plans He has for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you. (Jeramiah something, can't remember the chapter and verse at the moment.)
Laura

Kellars Mommy said...

Sending thoughts and prayers your way. I am a 1st timer to your blog ( found it through Jodi's ) but wanted to let you know that you are being thought of!!! Your little ones are precious..

Formercitygirl said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Trust in God, and He will get you through this.

Kim said...

Was blog hopping and came upon your tonight. I will be praying over you!

Becks said...

That must have been quite the shocker hearing that from the Dr!! I will keep you and your precious family in my prayers and pray for the best outcome!! I don't know if you ever read about my husband or not? He has had a brain tumor for the last two years. He has had two major surgeries to remove it plus radiation. He is doing fine and is always monitored. So have faith that things will turn out just fine!! Amazing what Dr's can do these days!!

All my prayers are with you!

Clare said...

Heather,

I am newer reader to your blog, but I can tell that you have a wonderful heart and love your children! I am so sorry about the initial results, and I am hoping like everyone else said that the doctors are wrong and things will be OK. I will be praying for you! Please keep us updated, and sending you bloggy love! XO, Clare

Anonymous said...

You are in my thoughts and my prayers my dear.

Beverly.

 
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