Tuesday, October 21, 2008

The End


Tomorrow will be the last day that Ella has breastmilk. It is officially almost gone.


I'm sad about that. And I'm angry about that.


We have been giving her 4 oz of breastmilk and 2 oz of formula with every bottle so her body is used to having formula. However, I am having a really hard time with accepting the fact that she will not get any more breastmilk. I am trying to make my peace with it, but it's difficult.


I loved nursing her. Absolutely loved it. I loved that I had so much milk stored up. I loved that my body made so much milk. And honestly, I loved my big milk filled breasts. They are gone and I am sad:(


I am thrilled that I was able to give Ella breastmilk for this long. The last day that I nursed her was August 11th. She was able to drink breastmilk for another 2 and a half months. That is amazing. I get that. I still don't want her drinking formula though. I don't know why, I just don't.


Wish me luck as I try to make my peace with formula.

16 comments:

Jenn said...

Aww, I'm sorry you are sad about it, but she will be ok . Look how big and strong and smart she is !

Jessica said...

Just think of all the health benefits she wouldn't have gotten if you hadn't breastfed at all. I know how hard it was to wean my own, and I definitely thinks its okay to mourn that. She's going to keep growing strong and healthy!

Chelle said...

Sending you (((hugs))) honey. Ella is a lucky, lucky girl to have a momma so loving as you.

Lisa said...

You did AMAZING!!! Seriosly, just amazing! Think of how much more she received than the average kiddo? Feel GOOD about your accomplishment, sweetheart!

Shana said...

Give yourself some credit. You have done a great job! And I promise Ella will be fine :)

Danielle (Life with the Hewitt Family) said...

Sorry that you are having a hard time with the formula. I know that those bags of milk are more precious than gold. I had a hard time adjusting to formula when my body couldn't keep up with my growing boy. Before long Miss Ella will moving on to baby food and that will be a fun time!

amanda said...

don't you just hate endings?

but high five to you and your "girls" for giving ms ella boob juice for so long!!

sending hugs to you both :)

Shannon said...

I'm so sorry, no wonder you're sad, but I think it's terrific she had it for this long - you really, really did have a big stash! Way to go . . . and just look how fabulous she is doing.

Jami said...

Good luck with the change. It is amazing how hard those decisions can be on a mommy.

chris said...

That totally stinks. Thinking of you... That's a tough thing no matter the age!

Clare said...

oh heather, i know this has to be harder than we can all understand. to have to give up breastfeeding when we don't want to. i can't imagine what you are going through, thinking of you!! ella looks really cute drinking her bottle all by herself though:)

Clare said...

also, i can't believe that you had that much milk in storage, that is AWESOME!!

Christy said...

I understand. I have be thinking about giving Izzy a bottle of soy milk in the afternoons, but I keep stalling. I just don't make enough milk to satisfy him anymore.

Rach (Mommy Learns to Blog) said...

Hang in there honey! Try to look at it this way - she may not have your milk, but she's got YOU! And what's more important than that?

Look at her holding her own bottle! MH NEVER did that!!!

Becks said...

That is really hard! I can feel your struggle with it. I think I would feel the same. Sadly Sophia always had formula. On the brightside nowadays formula is so advanced that they are getting all the good stuff in it! She will do just fine! :) She is a strong, smart little girl nothings gonna stop her!

Kristan said...

found your blog through a comment you left on cfhusband and wanted to peek at your darlings, who are truly darling. :) i definitely sympathize with you and hope the transition has gone well. i'm BF 15.5 month twins still and don't want to give it up...and can't imagine. i agree with everything everyone else said too - ella is lucky to have you!!

 
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