Thursday, July 16, 2009

The Good and The Bad

I have news.

We met with the Dr today and reviewed my PET scan and MRI results. According to the PET I am down to 2 tumors and they are shrinking at a rapid rate.

Two rounds ago the large tumor measured 1.7cm, now it is measuring 1.2cm. That is over 25% shrinkage. The Dr was thrilled with that progress. Apparently, that much shrinkage between the 3rd and 4th rounds is not common.

In fact, he was so enthused with this news that he decided to add two more rounds to the end. I am not happy about this at all. I was so excited about being done next month. This will extend my chemo into October. I am so sad. I had already planned a family vacation in September and zoo classes for the kids and family pictures. It's been a rough day. A day of ups and downs. I am sick of Houston. I am sick of leaving my kids. I am sick of feeling like shit. I just want to feel normal again. I just want to be able to take care of my munchkins again. I just want to be cancer free again!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


Tomorrow we leave for Houston.

Thursday will be a very busy day. We have a PET scan scheduled at 6am, then on to labs, MRI, chest x ray and appt with the Dr.

I am anxious to see how much the tumors have shrank since the last PET scan. I am also curious to know what he will want to do if they have not shrank. Obviously, best case scenario is that two of the tumors are gone and the one that I can feel is shrinking. Please pray that we are making progress.

Chemo is the absolute worst thing in the world. At least that is how I feel about it. Never, in my short little life, have I felt as awful as I do on chemo. I never knew it was possible to feel that awful. I feel very lucky that I am young and my body can handle it. I pray for the elderly and the children that I see while I am at MD Anderson. My heart breaks for them. I can't imagine doing this when I am 70, nor can I imagine my children having to go through this. That thought hurts to even think about.

This past week has been a pretty good week. We were able to head out of town to my BFF's for a bbq, then to my parents house the next day for a wonderful family get together. I feel so very lucky to have a BFF that would drop anything and everything to rush down here to help me. She has truly been a life saver. I am also blessed to have great family members that rearrange their schedules and make every effort to see us when we are in town. Aren't we lucky!?

Here are some pictures from our past week. Huge thank yous to my babies for such a wonderful week, however, if you are by chance reading this my little lovelies, feel free to stop the fighting!!! It is driving your poor mama insane!!

Me and Baby Deegan

Uncle Adam and Ella

Kyler giving Baby Deegan a big ole' smooch!

Ella watching the homemade ice cream spin around and around!

Such a silly little girl!

Ella and Kyler coloring on a big box.

Kyler and his masterpiece.

Ella jumping on the big box.

Kyler and Ella running from box to box.

Who knew a box could seriously provide hours of entertainment!

Kyler, Ella, and Aunt A checking out the gorillas at the zoo. We headed to the zoo so Ella could experience her very first zoo class. She did fabulous!

Ella is ready to go to bed.
Blog Makeovers by Tara