Saturday, September 26, 2009

We're Training!

Guess what we are working on at our house.....

Wish us luck!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

New Plan?

Well, the new plan is... there isn't a new plan. My oncologist here agreed with my oncologist at MD Anderson and the best thing to do right now is just sit and wait. It's a little frustrating, but I have made my peace with it. I am at the best place in the nation. My Dr knows what he is doing. If this what he thinks is the best thing to do, then it must be.

I spent a lot of nights crying. But, for some reason, hearing another Dr tell me the same thing helped. I feel more reassured. More confident.

It's going to be ok. It has to be. There are no other options.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

The Removal

The surgery was performed on Monday. I freaked out a little bit, but all in all, it went ok. They were only able to remove one tumor. They were not able to find the other one. I am a little freaked about this. Even though it did not show up as active on the PET scan, it still could be cancerous. And that, my friends, is a little scary.

At this time the plan is to go back to Houston in November for a repeat PET scan and appointment with the Dr. I am not sure I am very fond of this plan. That just seems like a lot of wait time. What if it actually is active and starts spreading? The thought of that actually brings tears to my eyes. These are not things that a 31 year old mother should be worrying about. It's not fair. I have two beautiful children that need and deserve to have their mommy. This whole situation just makes me so damn angry.

Before we left Houston they did a blood test to see if I had a certain protein in my blood for a melanoma trial vaccine. Of course, I do not contain the protein. The test results also came back on what they removed and it came back as melanoma-of course! I knew that it would come back as cancer, but it's still a bit of blow to hear it out loud. After 6 very, very awful rounds of chemo, it's hard to believe that I still have cancer in my body. Nothing about this seems very fair. Not fair at all.
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